8AM Breakfast
1 slice Whole Grain Bread w/ Yogurt Cheese and Turkey breast
1 egg
2-3 baby carrots

12:30PM Lunch
Veggie/meat stock broth with bok choy and carrots
1/2 grapefruit
1/2 cob of corn
1/2 cup baby carrots
1/2 cup celery

Arms and hands have been feeling tingly just at the slightest elevation.  Must be that Neuropathy.  Scheduled to see PCP tomorrow AND accupuncturist.  Hope I can find a holistic approach to manage the diabetes.

So I feel okay. Maybe it’s mental, but I was super sensitive to my body’s reactions to the foods I ate today. I definitely felt low blood sugar at one point during the day. Made me a little insecure about my ability to control this disease through diet, but I am adamant about doing it with as little medical intervention as possible.

My short term goal is to bring the Diabetes down to PreDiabetes stage. I am 5′4 and 181 lbs. It’s pretty unacceptable and I think the only reason I’ve gotten away with it so long is that the fat on my body is distributed pretty evenly, so I didn’t notice I had gained weight in that I don’t immediately feel my pants tightening. This was 12 years of gaining weight every year. Senior year of HS, I was about 115 – 120. I was so athletic and active, I never thought I could get fat. I ate everything and anything. After I stopped playing competitive sports, my body slowly started to change and still, for almost a decade, I was in denial. After the denial passed, I just couldn’t motivate myself. I was married to an incredible guy, who loved me exactly as I am. He did want me to get a little active, but only for health reasons.

So I am a bridesmaid in a wedding in October. I ordered a size 18 dress because that’s what fit loosely, and planned on tailoring it down to between a 16 and 18. This was all before the Diabetes was diagnosed. Let’s see if I can bring it down to a size 10 by then. I think that would be a really, really good thing.

Midmorning snack: Almonds

11:15AM Lunch
4 wontons
Finger size amount of egg noodles
bok choy and carrots
broth

2:30PM Afternoon Snack
3 tablespoons cooked rice
1/2 oz chicken, peas, carrots with curry seasoning

7:00PM Drive home
1 handful almonds

7:30PM Dinner
1 oz chicken
3 tbls rice
2 bowls soup broth
bokchoy
1/2 peach

6:30 AM Woke up
Blood Sugar: Don’t have the equipment yet

7:00 AM Breakfast
1 Slice of white bread (need to get whole wheat) with 1 tbls veggie lowfat cream cheese
8 Raw Almonds
1 wedge orange
2 Egg Whites

I had gestational diabetes while pregnant with my son 3 years ago. I just took a blood test last week and found out that I have a fasting blood of 140 – red flag that I have diabetes. While I was pregnant, I would never have a fasting blood that broke 95 and would only get to 140 after a meal of heavy carbs!

My initial reaction? Terror and guilt. Terrified that I’d just drastically shortened my life and guilt that I did it to myself with a sedentary lifestyle and indulgence in food. Especially guilty because I had a warning (gestational diabetes), knew what it was like to live with diabetes, knew all the risks and causes and STILL let myself gain 20 lbs AFTER giving birth.

Thank God for the internet, the support message boards on WebMD, and the kind people who are willing to care about and encourage a stranger.

My goals in life are to live healthy with my husband to age 75, raise 3 healthy kids (I’m on 1 right now), and be happy. This is my blog.